I always like to be in control.
No matter what it is, no matter how poorly I may do at the task, I always want to be the one to do it. I like my independence, and think that asking for help stunts that in some way. I think that if you have to ask for help, it’s because you’re a failure at a certain task, and for me that’s inexcusable!
Until recently, I didn’t realize how wrong that thought process was. I didn’t realize it, until I really wanted to start taking better pictures of my jewelry. So I brought out my webcam, and started to fiddle with the inaccessible software I need to use for my cam. My Mom saw me struggling and was like, “Do you want help with that?” so I sighed and went “OK”.
She took the picture in a third of the time it would usually take me to take a picture, hope it’s in frame, and send it to a friend on skype to see if it’s in focus. I’ve done this for hours at a time before, and failed at trying to take a good picture: having someone sighted do the picture taking, was a lot easier, and now I am sharing my pieces with my Facebook group, and starting a new album on Facebook for my jewelry. I’m really happy I get to share my work, because it’s helping me grow, and stay creative as an artist. So much so, that I’m almost out of wire 😄
I’ve always thought asking for help was a sign of being a failure. That if you asked for help, that meant you were weak, or not competent. I didn’t realize, how much easier it makes my life asking for help for things I actually need help on, instead of minor, trivial things. Being blind, you want to try and do as many things as you can on your own, and I think that partially plays into my insecurities about this: just something I realized, and am slowly getting over (I hope). I’m going to try and keep this going, and ask for help for other sighted things: Like setting up recording video footage.
Speaking of jewelry: I’ve been on a creative spree! I have a few pictures of pieces I’ve done, and am working on blog posts for each because I have a lot of stories attached to them haha. So be on the look out for some jewelry posts the next few blog days!