Forgeting Things, and my personal cure: List Making!

I’m sitting here, thinking of what to write about today and keep on getting ideas, then blanking out hardcore. I find this happens to me a lot: I always have ideas racing through my head, so fast that I can’t write them all down before I forget them lol. The ones that do stick? Basically any song I want to cover, or writing ideas for stories or fanfictions I write. Or wanting to google things for research, looking up business articles, looking at youtube…ya know, the internet junkies basics. Whenever I get a design idea for jewelry, that tends to fall out of my head, too and it’s super annoying! I always read on “How to remember things” articles that you should record memos to yourself, but I’m not the type of person to check those at all because…I forget XD

Now, I am not usually a forgetful person. In fact, I have a really good, long-term memory. It’s my short term, scatter brained self that’s the problem. And it doesn’t happen because I don’t get enough sleep, I get enough of that! I think it’s just that I have so much going on in my brain that not all of it stays in the fore front of my mind, so I am going to write this list down and hope that things I have been trying to remember pop up as I write: Lists are the one thing that do work for me, woo! This is a list of things that are ongoing for me and that I need to either start working on, or sstop procrastinating with:

– Look up different phone plans, preferably pay-as-you-go models and preferably ATT and T-Mobile. Where I am living my service on Virgin Mobile has gone inactive, and I needed a new phone any ways, so time to look at new options.
– Go through, and edit a short story I’ve been working on. I have to change some scenes around that don’t make much sense in the context of the universe.
– Finish the audition thread for my radioplay series: Add lines for characters, change the audition deadline, and post at various voice acting forums I belong to.
– Post a few new songs on SoundCloud: May wait until the week is over to do so, though so I don’t have a swarm of posts this week.
– Post the latest song I posted on Sound Cloud to other networks: Facebook, really. Did it everywhere else.
– Start working on a necklace design with both wire work and stringing. Make the wire wrapped components, or work with some wrapped beads I’ve been holding onto for awhile. I want to make a piece that incorporates both wire work and stringing in them, so I get a feel for combining techniques and don’t feel so at a loss as to how to do so.
– Write a new chapter of a series I’ve been working on, so close to finishing it!
– Work on getting videos for a few song covers, post said videos on youtube.
– Make a list of the covers I already have that I want to post on youtube to make said videos for.
– Aaand think that’s about it!

Seeing it all in a list like that, it does help a lot! And I can come back to this post and see what I still need to do. Mhmm, I am a fan of this plan! I’m off to be productive!

Relaxation Matters

Not the lying in bed all morning until you finally tell yourself “Oh, I should probably get up” type of relaxation, though that is very nice and one thing I can’t live without every once and awhile. I’ve noticed how important it is, however, to just be relaxed in general no matter what you’re doing. For me, before I warm up my voice, I make sure my body is relaxed, muscles all shaken out so I feel no tenseness in any part of my body. It doesn’t even have to be some rough and tough exercise – I literally just jump up and down and wiggle my arms and legs and torso until I feel like I’m loose enough to use all of my body to sing properly. And hey, if singing Shake it Off in your head is something you also like to do, more power to ya!

I didn’t always do this. I used to just go into my room and start singing. After a few weeks of feeling a lot of tenseness in my throat, and then going to my coach and him saying “Have you been practicing?” I realized I was doing something wrong herpaderp. When he said that I was like “…Yes?” and it was really an eye-opener to making sure I wasn’t doing anything to hurt my vocal cords. Enter the google research!

I am a huge researcher, and looking up tips here and there, watching a few you tube videos and pairing that with my coaches amazing advice, I realized how important relaxation was to my vocal health. Wowie what a difference! The next performance I had was a vast improvement to the vocal pains and strains I had been having in the past! Now I continue doing those certain shake-it-outs, along with other things that I do to stay in tip top vocal condition!

What do you do to relax and refocus?

Eurovision 2015 Final Thoughts and Reactions

This is just going to be a rambly excited thing because this was the first year that I ever watched Eurovision all the way through and it was so fun ayaaah. I know this isn’t normally a day when I post, but I am just so excited I had to write!

Eurovision Song Contest 2015 finished about an hour ago after a week of amazing songs, great diversity, and tons of fun. Vienna, Austria was the stage for this amazing event, and although I wasn’t there it truly felt like it as I watched the live stream. I’m a US citizen, so it was really nice seeing how free and accepting Europe in general is of everyone and everything no matter who you are or where you’re from: the love and support just oozed out of the screen, and it was truly inspirational to watch. As a singer, it was really interesting to see what was popular stylistically in other countries, and honestly, it’s the type of music I’m into and love to sing! It was so refreshing to see that a genre that may not be popular at all in the states has a following in European countries, and it really got me geared up to stop worrying so much about what I sing, and just to sing what I love and enjoy the moment and perform my heart out.

I was rooting for Spain all week, but there were so many good songs that even if Spain didn’t win, I would’ve been happy with them winning. I had two dark horses in the contest that I simply adored: Sweden, and Serbia. Both songs had amazing messages of just being happy with who you are, but I feel Sweden’s message went a bit deeper – that your worst enemy is you, and to stop fighting who you are and just ignore all the voices in your mind and strive for success. I guess it drove home for a lot more people as well, because Sweden won and I couldn’t be happier! Russia was a close second, and their singer was just so sincere and heartfelt. It was so adorable to watch her reaction as Russia racked up the votes in the first half of the results show. But bam, Sweden for a come from behind win!

Watching Eurovision was such an eye-opening experience. I’ve always loved Europe, but I’ve never wanted to travel to it more than I have now. The theme of the contest this year was building bridges, and if you watched the show you really, really felt that message was driven home beautifully.

If you want to listen to the songs, or watch the competition, go to the Eurovision channel on youtube! The press conference is on right now, so gotta go watch that XD Congrats Sweden, you rock!

Beach Fun Times

Tuesday I went down to the beach that’s five minutes away from my place with my Mom. I want to say I finally did, but it’s only been two weeks since we’ve been here so I want to refrain from saying ‘finally’ like I’ve just been lazing around my house for months and it’s been right there lol. Needless to say, I loved it!

We walked around for a while – trying to find where the entrance to the actual beach was. After about twenty minutes, we found it and just chilled and wandered around! The things I noticed:

– The sand is so white and pretty! I was shocked that I could see anything, at all honestly. I suppose the bigger an expanse something is, the better I can see it because I could see all the colors of the waves, all the sand colors and the fact that the waves were moving. My vision has been really shotty over the years, like worse than it was when I was a teenager, so I was a little nervous to go out to the ocean and not be able to see any of it. It was breath taking to see something in such detail again – even if it was just that I could diversify the colors and where they were on the ocean, it really took me aback. It makes me want to see what else I can well, see! I haven’t been using my eyes for so long because I had given up being able to use them in any capacity, So in short: big scenes good, small scenes bad for ma eyeballs!
– I’ve been dying to go down to the shoreline and pick up some shells. My Mom spotted some wet blue…things that looked like shells, so here’s hoping when they dry they are indeed shells that I can use in a design for a jewelry piece! If it turns out that it was some sort of swamp monster, then I knew ye well…
– Doggies! While we were standing there two dogs ran up to us and started sniffa-sniffin. They were so small and cute…until one started digging a hole and getting sand all over us, eek!
– One thing that happened that was so amusing: My Mom saw the tide rising up to where we were and she was like “Move fast!” and I started moving slowly. “Faster!” but it was too late – the tide had risen and gotten our feet all wet. Two things I learned: The water is very refreshingly cold, and feels like it’d be fun to swim in, which is something I hadn’t even considered!
– I hear that ocean breeze, the way it’s calling me~ the air was so refreshing, loved how you could smell every inch of the ocean in it. The walk to the beach is hilly, and usually I would have been winded and tired and wanted to go back home. But the air just really rejuvenated me and kept me going, and as I told my Mom it was great breath support exercise!
– Mom “snuck” a few beach selfies of me haha. My hair was blowing all over the place so I am curious to see how they turned out. Shall post them as soon as I nab them from my Mom’s tablet!

Definitely so happy to finally be living on the beach. It’s always been a dream of mine, and it’s everything I imagined it would be!

So how was your day? 

Embracing My Inner Diva

In the past week, I’ve been looking at different things for designing inspiration. After getting some ideas from a fellow creative, I started looking at the jewelry of Historical eras I’ve always loved – the various stages of the Victorian era, traditional Celtic jewelry and Egyptian designs. The period that resonated the most with me? The Victorian era’s first stage – the romance era, which was filled with beautifully crafted, lacy chains, pastel colors, gemstones of all shapes and sizes. I was reading filigree was a large component in their pieces as well and started looking up how to make it. Currently I’m trying to figure out how to create it without having to go through the tedious task of melting metals down because messing with a flame in any capacity scares the bejesus out of me.

What I realized after doing that, and making some pieces is…is…I like….uuuuh….I’m really into fashion and keeping up with trends ok! I’ve been reading all sorts of jewelry blogs, following Facebook and Twitter feeds about different fashion trends, reading about the different colors of the month for this year, and I’ve been enjoying it!

Doing this was so weird to me. I mean, you’d think loving Sailor Moon and My Little Pony would be a dead giveaway, right? But when it comes to expressing myself in any sort of visual capacity I just…can’t. I love the flowy types of skirts and dresses, but feel really uncomfortable in them. I have a ton of those things just sitting in my closet. I have jewelry I don’t wear, and I make it for crying out loud! And selling it is so terrifying to me. The only thing I am even remotely comfortable wearing is makeup, and I haven’t practiced putting that on in ages.

I honestly don’t get it. Why am I so afraid to express myself by wearing things I like? Where did these body issues come from! Whenever I do have to wear a dress for a performance or something, I feel so uncomfortable – like everyone is staring at me, but not in a positive way. More like “Haha, look at that blindy wearing…pretty things!” I don’t even know what my problem is with this! Do I really want to not be noticed so badly that I deny this part of myself while accepting other parts that make me less girly or something?

I have never, no matter how hard I try, been able to embrace this part of myself. I know it’s there, I know I like these things, but whenever I get myself to the point of just saying ok, I’m going to just do this! I bail and never do. Like I said, I want to sell my jewelry pieces for a living, but not doing so stems from this problem: I’m afraid to sell these things because I don’t want to draw any sort of attention to them, or don’t think they are that special. I’m overly critical of this part of myself and I feel like enough is enough but I really can’t get myself to pass this hurdle in my psyche and it’s so, so frustrating.

What could it beeee?

I mean, regardless I am going to work on building up a web store to sell my jewelry, but will I be able to promote it when it’s done? I’ll force myself to, but once again my self-promoting skills are lack luster due to not thinking anything I do is good enough blarg. Siiiigh, ick!

That felt good to get out. Now here’s hoping I can work through this thing and embrace my inner diva! Time to post this before I lose my nerve…

Hot Sauce Heaven

I have never been a huge fan of hot things – I’ve found that a lot of Americanized hot foods just throw a ton of spice onto the dish with no flavor to the heat of the food what-so-ever. Just makes a super-hot irritating party in my mouth of nothing but hot hot hot uuuugh make it stop!

Recently, through knowing someone obsessed with all things spicy (heck, I don’t think a ghost pepper could slow her down) I’ve been trying hot sauce on different things. Not gonna lie, she says she cooks with a lot of hot spices and I really wanna be able to eat her food and that’s how this all started XD but I’ve also found myself liking the different hot sauces I’ve been trying, which is a shocker to even me!

I figured out what my problem was with hot foods I’ve tried in the past, though: Like I said, all spice no flavor. But I love when a hot sauce has some other flavors added to it – may it be sweet so it’s like spicy barbeque sauce, or sour and citrusy so it tastes awesome on fish and chicken. Recently I bought this Mexican hot sauce that’s so delicious and I’ve been sticking it on everything. Man, it’s so amazing! It’s like sweet, sour, and has a kick to it and really adds to the flavor of whatever you’re putting it on. I put it on chicken and it made it taste like a buffalo wing (which I have been craving for months now so that totally worked out) and on fish it adds a lemony-hot kick that is sooo delish!

I am looking at other hot sauces – there’s this mango one I really want to try because I adore eating mango anything. Just looking at different sauces is so fascinating to me, and I really want to start collecting some to use on different meals. One thing I’ve also noticed, is that it helps me feel a lot better! My nose isn’t as clogged as it usually is and when I sing I feel like I have a clearer passage for my air to flow (though of course I don’t sing directly after eating hot sauce, that’s maaadness!).

I’m really enjoying exploring this new world of foodie territory and can’t wait to actually cook some dishes and use this hot sauce as a base! Do you have any good hot sauces to recommend trying on the more milder side? Or recipes involving a good hot sauce as a base?

The Horrible Truth

Epiphany time…

It’s a horrible horrible truth to bare…but…

I have realized I can’t do anything without scheduling WHYYYY.

Like I procrastinate so much unless I put in my mind “Thursday I need to do ___ at 5 PM” or “Every day at 2 PM I will practice for 20 minutes” and I wish I wasn’t that way but it’s the only way I get things done without putting them off. If I have a schedule, I feel guilty for not following it and then just do whatever I had planned for the day. I feel like this isn’t exactly healthy…but it works!

I’m one of those vague schedulers though. Some things I can say “Practice singing at 2 PM for 20 minutes” but most other things I just have to say I’ll do it sometime in the day and it gets done. The two things that are the hardest for me to do on a consistent basis are recording, may it be voice over auditions, songs or lines for projects I’m in, or writing, may it be blog posts, scripts, or novel fiction. Those are the two things I’m struggling with working in right now. So I’m thinking pick one day for one of those things, and one for the other? But it’s hard for me to pick which day to do what activity hrmm. And that isn’t even including other stuff I like to do…

I’m really at a loss as to what to do here, guys. If you have any ideas please post in the comments! Should I just stop thinking so hard about this and do the things I’ve been putting off? Pick certain days to do said things? Stop asking so many questions?